We say delivery is like a giving birth to a watermelon in Japan. Watermelon was not enough. I felt a big and hard log was coming out.
Avram and I wanted to have natural delivery, so I said the doctor I don't need an epidural. But the log gave me so much pain. I was not sure I could stand it until the end.
I didn't scream, scratch, and break Avram's hands. I couldn't say anything from the pain. I had no energy for them. I just stood the labor quietly.
At the end of my delivery, the doctor saw I was having a lot of pain and recommended to have an epidural not only for killing the pain but also for c-section in case. I liked his suggestion. Thanks to the doctor, I got a good excuse to use an epidural.
The doctor said he will send some nurses for the epidural, but they didn't come. The pain was getting worse and worse. I said "Why don't they come? He said they will come soon. How long do I have to wait? Why don't they give me epidural now? Then it would be useless."
I was not going to use an epidural, but I complained about getting the treatment too slowly at the end of my delivery.
When I got the epidural, I could be in heaven. I was surprised at the effect of the epidural. It was like magic. I felt like I could have a few more babies then. I thanked the doctor even though he kept saying the baby has a big head like her mother every time we visited. He was right. Airi's head was round, but I made it. I delivered her safely:) Avram, Airi, and I worked together for the first time on Nov.2nd.
Now I respect every mother and thank many people who support us. I thank my husband Avram a lot.
Airi is a beautiful girl. She often smiles these days except when she poops. I guess pooping is like labor for her, so I understand how she feels then. She can cry and complain then. It's our pleasure to help her for it.
日本では出産はスイカを生むようなものだというけれど、スイカなんてものじゃなかった。大きな硬い丸太がころころ転がり出てくる感じ。
アブラムも私も自然出産がしたくて麻酔は要りませんっていっちゃたけど、あまりの痛さに本当に乗り切れるのか自信がなくなってきた。
私は泣き叫びもしなかったし、アブラムの手を壊すぐらい強く握りもしなかった。それより痛くてもう声が出せし、力が出なくて静かに出産に耐えた。
出産が終盤に入ってきた頃、ドクターが「麻酔はいらないって言ってるけど、万が一のことがあったら帝王切開に切り替えるから、今麻酔をうっておいたほうがいいと思うけど。」
先生、うまいこと言うねぇ。「万が一」って言葉に心がいともたやすく折れて、あんなに拒んできた麻酔を受けることにした。
「じゃ、看護士さんに来てもらうから。」と先生は去っていった。痛みはひどくなるのに看護士さんは一向に来ない。「先生、すぐ来てもらうって言ったのにぃ。なんで来ないの？あとどれくらい待てばいいの？今うたなきゃ役に立たないじゃない。」麻酔を受けるつもりはなかったのに、その痛さに声にならない文句が出る。
麻酔を受けるとそこはもう天国！その効き目はまるで魔法。あと数人は今出産できるよって感じ。先生が毎回「お母さんに似て頭の大きな子だから・・・。」って言って失礼だと思ってきたけど、でも、先生のおかげで幸せな出産ができたからすごく感謝。先生の言うとおり、アイリの頭は少し大きめだったけど、アイリとママの初めての共同作業で安産だったから本当に幸せ。
今は本当にすべてのお母さんがすごいなぁと思うし、祝福してくれたすべての人に感謝。そして何よりずっと私を支えてくれたアブラムに感謝。
アイリは本当にかわいい娘。最近、うんちを踏ん張る以外のときは微笑を返してくれる。ウンチの生みの苦しみはどうやら彼女にとっては産みの苦しみみたいだから理解できる。だから、ウンウンうなって文句を言ってても喜んでお世話をするよ。
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